sleepless me..

last weekend was a nightmare to me. worst 2 days ever! but whenever people asked for 'him'..i would answered this,' his happiness is all matters now..'.

i love seeing him smiling instead of sad.
i love seeing him talking so much instead of being silence.
therefore, one way to see his happy face, better to let him go.

but for me, i suffered inside. they did not bother about me. all they said was ' THANK YOU'. Thank you as for me to let him go.

i cant even sleep.. i think only 2 hours per nites. gossh! Only Allah knows how tired i was.. however,thankful my families were supportive enough.. they knew that i was miserable. they knew i was crying during my sleep. they knew how hurt i was. so we gathered at Marche to celebrate Mother's Day. And 3 hours smiled is all worth it for them as i could at least stop thinking how awful and hurt i was..

now as he is back.. i slept soundly like a baby. i missed him, surely i was.
and now SILENCE war has begun.. it take sometimes to heal, for sure but not to him but THEM.