i am so weak..
muntah muntah..
sakit kepala.. NOT pening.. but SAKIT!
tak boleh nak berdiri sendiri.. baring is all i can do..
ugrrrhh!!! dugaan betul.
hormones tengah tak betul..
rasa macam diri nie berminyak..
jerawat sana sini..
few times merangkak dr toilet ke tepi katil ( lepas muntah..)
and lepas tu nangis sorang2..
first first hubby tak nampak.. lama2.. dengan dia join sedih..
endup setiap kali kami dua dua sedih.. sure hubby bawak gambar baby..
yang dah masuk 13 weeks.. ( last scan on 21 Nov hari tu.. )..
then aku dapat energy balik.. releks.. tak emotional sangat. :(
and disebabkan muntah almost everynite ..
and tak lalu makan most of the time..
i lost 3KG for the past 4 weeks..
surely a great news if our baby tak ada kat perut nie..
but it becomes nigthmare to me... 8KGs for 13 weeks?
wow.. hari tu masa 2 months hilang 5KG..ini dah masuk 3months lagi 3KGs..
nurse yg kat counter marah
mak marah..
hubby pun marah..
aku pun marah diri sendiri.. tapi rasanye orang semua paham ..
perasan kalau baru lepas baik demam.. apapun tak nak makan..
and paling teruk.. ko nak makan.. tapi bila makan.. your body totally reject.. SEMUA!
mana la tak menangis sorang2.
and nak di sharekan dengan semua ..
hari tu aku bleed sikit.. serun ooo.. tapi aku diamkan..
hubby pun tak tahu.. my action, if second time bleed lagi.
(aku beritahu abie after 1 week sbb takut dia freak out! ..sorry sayang! )
confirm aku admitted sendiri ke hospital.. becoz i dont trust myself anymore..
yelah.. people said, aku lincah.. jalan mcm orang normal..
aku boleh busy and terlupa makan.. and so on.. ME LIKE NORMAL but im not :(
sorry baby.. mama terlupa.but lucky me.. my baby is OK. MEMBESAR bagai warrior.
dah nampak brain dia.. kedua tangan.. kedua kaki.. WOW! its amazing.
nanti aku bagi gambar.. 3D scan lagi.. sbb nak tgk condition mama and baby sekali after all happened to mommy.
so please pray for us ya..
i dont feel like write more on this..
it just sad thing.. and i hate it!
doakan kami selamat yer..
daaaa!!!!
muntah muntah..
sakit kepala.. NOT pening.. but SAKIT!
tak boleh nak berdiri sendiri.. baring is all i can do..
ugrrrhh!!! dugaan betul.
hormones tengah tak betul..
rasa macam diri nie berminyak..
jerawat sana sini..
few times merangkak dr toilet ke tepi katil ( lepas muntah..)
and lepas tu nangis sorang2..
first first hubby tak nampak.. lama2.. dengan dia join sedih..
endup setiap kali kami dua dua sedih.. sure hubby bawak gambar baby..
yang dah masuk 13 weeks.. ( last scan on 21 Nov hari tu.. )..
then aku dapat energy balik.. releks.. tak emotional sangat. :(
and disebabkan muntah almost everynite ..
and tak lalu makan most of the time..
i lost 3KG for the past 4 weeks..
surely a great news if our baby tak ada kat perut nie..
but it becomes nigthmare to me... 8KGs for 13 weeks?
wow.. hari tu masa 2 months hilang 5KG..ini dah masuk 3months lagi 3KGs..
nurse yg kat counter marah
mak marah..
hubby pun marah..
aku pun marah diri sendiri.. tapi rasanye orang semua paham ..
perasan kalau baru lepas baik demam.. apapun tak nak makan..
and paling teruk.. ko nak makan.. tapi bila makan.. your body totally reject.. SEMUA!
mana la tak menangis sorang2.
and nak di sharekan dengan semua ..
hari tu aku bleed sikit.. serun ooo.. tapi aku diamkan..
hubby pun tak tahu.. my action, if second time bleed lagi.
(aku beritahu abie after 1 week sbb takut dia freak out! ..sorry sayang! )
confirm aku admitted sendiri ke hospital.. becoz i dont trust myself anymore..
yelah.. people said, aku lincah.. jalan mcm orang normal..
aku boleh busy and terlupa makan.. and so on.. ME LIKE NORMAL but im not :(
sorry baby.. mama terlupa.but lucky me.. my baby is OK. MEMBESAR bagai warrior.
dah nampak brain dia.. kedua tangan.. kedua kaki.. WOW! its amazing.
nanti aku bagi gambar.. 3D scan lagi.. sbb nak tgk condition mama and baby sekali after all happened to mommy.
so please pray for us ya..
i dont feel like write more on this..
it just sad thing.. and i hate it!
doakan kami selamat yer..
daaaa!!!!
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represent you...our future.. our little baby which is now 13 weeks old.
see the head? itu baru nak bercamtum.
small hands .. baru nak terbentuk..
and the legs.. cute kan?
bila tatap gambar nie.. hilang semua rasa penat..
hilang semua rasa loya and sakit..
2 comments:
Ermmmm sgt ngeri btol baca entry ko nih...i really hope you will get better soon like really2 soon...banyak2 la bersabar and jgn la loose weight lagi hendaknya...baby pon tgh nak membesar kan skang nih...and please stop working so hard...you got all the reason not to now...:)
Lotsa love and hugs...will pray for your well bring and your baby too darling! Muahhhsssss
Take care tau...
hey, take care of urself friend... been there, done that... tapi we are tough mommies kan!!! i'm sure u'll get over it in no time...
p/s: x pi kenduri umah yun ari tu?
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