demotivated, I am

Alhamdulillah with all yang Allah berikan selama nie. Tapi biasalah being seorang manusia, ada ajer yang tak kena. Ada ajer yang tak cukup. Betul x?

Not sure why? tapi since 1 week ago , ive been demotivated on my work. Over load? Not sure.. i think may be jugak Over Load. Sbb masa aku buat thesis on final year degree on Information Overload, one of the sympthon adalah ' tak tahu yang kita ni sudah overload. and the end we are not sure what is wrong and what is correct ' .. errrkhhh!

When i was a developer , 1 or 3 years ago, everything seems to be happy and clean. Clean in the sense of , we just do our work and thats it! Lets other people handle. As long as we did our jobs and Walllahh! I can just go home and sit infront of my TV as long as i want.

But now, even there is no more code like if i = 0,i>12,i++ ( this is C++ i think ...) or what ever, I am not happy as i was. MONEY? of coz its all becoz of MONEY. but my work wise, i just close my eyes, and let it be . WORK POLITICS? I bet you! sapa kata tak ada. FYI - I just being kicked out inside the conference call 10 mins ago ( termasuk lah abang2 angkat aku - my team lead over there ) sbb tak ajak developers join kami sekali, which dah 1000 times aku explain, contractors cant bring their notebook home and hence they dont have their free call number to any conference call either. BUT again, for 'them' its not an excuse. So here it goes, my name ( bcoz lepas SORT, Azura Idris paling atas..) was in the list to the director. Ni kerja orang yg kissing A55. Asthagfirullah.. Sabar ajerlah.

So i have a choice to make ..

1. Wait for Dec *( 1st week dah dapat BONUS).

2. Cabut now, heck! bukan banyak pun BONUS tuu.. [ headhunters are calling me everyday.insyallah just name the price and what i want..]

3. Wait until i finishes all 5 PROJECTS on hands. Yes i repeat, 5 projects with 5 and more perangai which i need to berdepan and berlakon baik. Hell!, that would be on July 2008.. lama tuuuu.. erkghhhh.. Crappp!

Well, my super super boss ( aku rasa dia pun akan cabut soon or later.. ) will be here next week. So may be i will have this boss to boss talk and have one conculsion? hmmm.. i dont know. we just wait and see..

Till then , take care everyone! Nak dok ngesot2 sebelah reza where i need him most now. :(